MIXED BAG

today i feel,
like i'm on the top of the world,
but just the next moment,
it all seems to burn away,
colour of ash,
scatters my life,
here i'm today,
enjoying myself,
and there i'm crying today....

somewhere a range of emmotions,
i never felt before envelope me,
i enjoy it first,
but latter it seems to disgust me,
my heart full of what i know not off,
makes me feel,
i'm left alone...

everyone around me,
yet alone,
life is missing,
yet around,
i want to fly on my wings of desire,
but somehow feel,
the journey dim,
there far away,
i see that ray,
but nearer i move,
further it goes away....

accomplishments and acheivements seem far far away,
and the kindle of hope fades away,
will i reach to my end desire?
or will i make the end today,
what i want,..and what i've known all along..revolve around me,
life's afterall measured not by the moments we fondly pass,
but the number of moments that take are heart away.....

my life is such a mixed bag,
that where is starts, and where it ends..
i'll never know today!!